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The choice

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Stuck between a choice at the crossroad if my life. The choice of being where I want to be or doing what I like to do. If choices were easy they will not be called choices.

The merger in the company is not going too smoothly as it should be. The lack of a direction has left a lot of people wondering. The point of view from my level is a little hazy. Well you don’t really see much at the level of the food chain I am in. I am sure there are lot more smarter people up at the higher levels. Sometimes that leaves doubts in my mind. For example, the company announces that the consulting division will cease to exist after the first of November. I have ceased to exists for a month and a half now. With the rate it is going and the mandatory break we are suppose to have, it will be two months of non existance. Lessons to be learnt: Don’t announce anything if you don’t have a plan to back it up.

Not that I am complaining. Who would not like to be paid to hang around and do nothing? Well not entirely nothing some menial brain exercise is required. It was not entirely unproductive. I have been doing a lot of cleaning and fixing stuff at home. Did some house projects. Went for an actual holiday. Got sunburnt. Relaxed for probably the only time in my life. Lots of thinking time. Good and bad.

That’s where my situation has come to. Things are getting sorted with my role in the company. I have been given a few choices. I have distilled it to two basic path; where I want to be but not necessary what I like to do or what I like to do but not necessary where I want to be.

Life’s decisions are hard. On one hand it’s like a promotion and I would definitely get more visibility if I do it right. On the other, I am not sure if I want that visibility. I am also uncertain if this is the path I want to take.

In the end, which will be confirmed this Friday the 19th of December 2008, I will be where I want to be. With the hope that I will eventually do what I like to do.

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